Bitchiness is not a Crime

Just another woman who try to look wise

My last letter to you…

I never thought I’m gonna say this… but yes, we had our moment and I miss that a lot… Those late night conversations, all was always emotionally stirring and so refreshing… I thought, it was just a talk… but now I can see clearly… I was in love.You notice the past-tense? Yes, not anymore… I am all broken heart now. And the funny thing is, I didn’t even realise that until now…

But let me remember all the great conversations we once had… just for a little while. When I try to remember all of what we’ve talked about… all I can see is us, twirling around in a tornado of ecstasy… funny how emotions got through that instant messenger box. But you turn me in and out, up and down, you make me feel alive!!! Yes, I feel more alive when talking to you… at that time, I really don’t know what I feel about you. I thought you’re just a great chat buddy. Even when we finally meet, it was a good time.

Yesterday, I passed through our first meeting place… and I laugh. And said to myself, that’s where I dated you for the first time, and there’s a small voice in me that said, I’m never going there anymore. I didn’t understand. But now I do.

When you told me that you are going to marry someone else, I don’t feel angry or anything… but I know that we will never have a great conversation again after that. I feel what a pity… I really like talking to you. I think, I wrote you an email when you already decided to choose her, but I didn’t know… if I know, I would never write that email. But I’m glad, I had the chance to thank you. So this is the last thing I ever write to you… I removed you from my life.

You betrayed me. You gave me hope, but never give me the chance to fight. You told me that I inspire you, but you turn away from me. I thank you for giving me the chance to taste ‘alive’, but I curse you for being shallow over me. You are not just another guy, but you are the guy who broke my heart and put it frozen. I hate you because you made me fall in love, but I am grateful for letting me see through who you really are.

I know you think of me… and I know you will always think of me.


January 31, 2010 - Posted by | In between, Love, Men, Relationship, Women


  1. Well…It happened that I love to sing “crazy” of Julio Iglesias to recover myself from such “unexpectable” episode of my life and to my surprise it worked!!

    Crazy… I’m crazy for feeling so lonely…
    I’m crazy…, crazy for feeling so blue….
    I knew, you want me as long as you want it,
    and then someday you’ll leave me for somebody new…

    be strong ok? best regards

    Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | February 1, 2010 | Reply

    • 😛
      Aneh ya hal2 yg terjadi dalam hidup kita…
      I’m all better kok… cuma kemarin kaget ajah krn baru sadar 🙂
      Well, all I can say… it wasn’t meant to be 😉

      Comment by hapitri | February 4, 2010 | Reply

  2. Dear Hap,

    Try to listen “You needed me” of Ann Murray, hope it would help…


    Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | February 2, 2010 | Reply

    • will try that… thanks!!

      Comment by hapitri | February 4, 2010 | Reply

    • I sold my soul and you bought it back???

      er… what are you trying to say?

      Comment by hapitri | February 21, 2010 | Reply

      • what am I trying to say….?
        honestly…I really am impressed, I do respect and want see you be happy…

        Comment by Irawam Danuningrat | February 22, 2010

      • Thank you sir…
        Like a friend of mine once said, happiness comes from within… though I am agree to that, but it is never an easy task eh?

        Comment by hapitri | February 23, 2010

  3. Hallo Bu, kamu punya FB gak bu ? 😀

    Comment by lovepassword | February 22, 2010 | Reply

    • huhuhuh…. masih anak gadis gini lhoo… kok panggil ‘ibu’ hikssss….

      ada dong.. mas Eko punya? mau saya add? 😉

      Comment by hapitri | February 23, 2010 | Reply

      • Sip lah, namanya lovepassword oye. Hi Hi hi. Aku kemarin nge-add manusia yang namanya mirip kamu. Nggak tahulah itu kamu apa nggak. Kalo ternyata nggak juga paling dia bingung sedikit. 🙂

        Comment by lovepassword | February 24, 2010

      • huahahaahaha…

        curang, itu FB klonengan!!! kasih yg asli donggg…

        Comment by hapitri | February 24, 2010

  4. Dear Hap,

    h r u ?, may this short story could make you smile….

    A married couple in their early 60’s was celebrating their 40th wedding anniversary in a quiet, romantic little restaurant.

    Suddenly, a tiny yet beautiful fairy appeared on their table.

    She said, ‘For being such an exemplary married couple and for being loving to each
    other for all this time, I will grant you each a wish.’

    The wife answered, ‘Oh, I want to travel around the world with my darling husband.’

    The fairy waved her magic wand and – poof! – two tickets for the Queen Mary II appeared in her hands.

    The husband thought for a moment: ‘Well, this is all very romantic, but an opportunity like this will never come again..

    I’m sorry my love, but my wish is to have a wife 30 years younger than me.’

    The wife, and the fairy, were deeply disappointed, but a wish is a wish.

    So the fairy waved her magic wand and poof!..the husband became 92 years old.

    The moral of this story: Men who are ungrateful bastards should remember…..fairies are female.

    Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | April 3, 2010 | Reply

    • hahahaha…. it does!!! It put a smile on my face 😀
      You know it’s quite funny that you replied to this particular post now…
      when I just feel that everyone who are dear to me seems to disappearing from my life… Life’s little coincidences eh?

      Comment by hapitri | April 4, 2010 | Reply

      • Well.., I wished it was just a life’s little coincidence and not of being cursed by the closing words of this touchy posting… halaaah.


        Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | April 7, 2010

      • 😀
        it is not?

        Comment by hapitri | April 9, 2010

      • I’m gladly cursed….!

        Comment by Fanya | April 11, 2010

      • I still cursed, but in a different direction now 😀

        Comment by hapitri | April 12, 2010

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