Bitchiness is not a Crime

Just another woman who try to look wise

Unhappy

I think this is one of the worst moments of my life…

I am completely miserable.

and just now a friend of mine said the same feeling as I am, and she said “if only there’s a pill for happiness”. I said to her, “I don’t want to feel happy anymore, this feelings fit me well”

I don’t know, it’s funny how I don’t even want to feel happy anymore…

Today, I lost all of my reasons to be happy in life… I am unloved by the only person I thought will be beside me forever. Maybe I’ve always know this from the beginning, but to my selfishness, I refused to see.

As the day start… but I didn’t see that it is the beginning of an end. For a while I was in a complete ecstacy, it blurs my logics and clear mind. Now, as the effect of the drug wears off… I am again unhappy. And it is always more energy draining each time this happens, I don’t want to feel happy anymore just to feel unhappy at the end.

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January 7, 2010 - Posted by | In between, Life in General, Love, Relationship

4 Comments »

  1. Dear Hap,….
    what’s make a cake yummi? is it the flour, sugar? or its eggs……? only the blend and the harmony of those things that make a cake yummi….
    I believe God works the same way dear. We don’t need to settle for the raw ingredients, just trust in Him and discover something fantastic come about!

    all the best !

    Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | January 12, 2010 | Reply

    • ….. raw?

      Comment by hapitri | January 30, 2010 | Reply

  2. Yup…! bukankah Tuhan sering hanya memberi seutas tali pancing, kail tajam, ilmu memancing dan cacing menjijikan (raw materiaals) bagi orang yg bermohon dan membutuhkan ikan bagi kelangsungan hidupnya dan tidak langsung memberinya seekor ikan bukan??

    Teman baik sejak masa kecil saya yg sejak berapa lama menjadi salah seorang pengusaha Indonesia yg sangat sukses, agamis, sosial, dermawan, sayang & setia kpd isteri & kelg, semuanya tak lepas dari kesabaran, ketabahan dan kecerdasan spiritual ybs dlm menyikapi berbagai kesulitan dlm hidupnya. Meski ybs secara teoritis hanya mengenyam pendidikan hingga SLTP akibat kehidupan ortunya yg hidup dibawah garis kemiskinan dan ia harus puas selama beberapa tahun bekerja sbg juru kesehatan hewan berkeliling dari desa ke desa di Jawa Barat dgn upah minim dan sulit menemukan wanita yg bersedia menjadi isterinya, ia berhasil menjadi konglomerat dan hidup bahagia bersama isterinya yg suer… dia sangat cantik, salehah beserta 3 orang anaknya…

    Menurut hemat saya, dia termasuk orang yg pandai meramu “bahan-bahan mentah” yg dianugrahkan Tuhan dlm kehidupannya hingga menjadi “kue” yg begitu lezat.

    Demikian, salam.

    Comment by Irawan Danuningrat | February 1, 2010 | Reply

    • 😀
      Good point… where can I find a billionaire to be???

      Comment by hapitri | February 4, 2010 | Reply


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