Ignorance is bliss

While talking to a friend of mine, who is very much laid back and take life as it is… which I envy very much of course. I realised that I was once like him… carefree, and so easy on life. Then I take a few steps back and try to remember what made me turn into this, whatever I am now… I think too much, I read too much, I analysed too much. Instead of enjoying life, I try to figure out life. Though I can explain things and understand a lot (not a whole lot), but I am not happy. The more I know, the more I feel unhappy… and the more I envy those who are unlike me. And I know now the true meaning of ‘ignorance is bliss’… it is true… what you don’t know, doesn’t hurt you… My thirst of knowledge lifts the mist of life’s illusions and opens my eyes to the vast plain of the unknown… I guess, my real life story starts with ‘sophie’s world’… it stretches my cup into a pond and the more I read… the bigger the pond becomes… or! It wakes me up that in fact I am a mere fly on the saucer’s edge? Now… I know that I can never ever be able to fill that cup, and that makes me unhappy. Anyway, this friend of mine when he knows that my heart is weary and lost, he ask me to read the Koran… and I asked him, “you mean sing the Arabic words?”… oh the naïve-ness of people… again, what you don’t know really doesn’t hurt you… But then I rethink… maybe this is God’s way of telling me, that the knowledge does put me away from people… but it is a great gift. I mean, I know more than common people… I can use that knowledge for my own good. This knowledge does not only isolate me, but it also open up a new and better path for me. Someone once told me, that God gives learning in every side of life… all we have to so is just to take learning from it, be humble therefore the knowledge will come easily. From the moment he said that, I know exactly what he was talking about… in a way, I’ve been learning and taking lessons if the things I read and talk about to people… And I thank God that my heart still belongs to God, I mean nothing in the things I learn had been against God. I got lucky I guess… my eyes were opened to God, before it opens to the world’s knowledge… or it was the way it meant to be? Who knows…

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