A Letter to D

Dear D,

Last night after we sent our beautiful bali girl away to be with her love, you told me that V is talking about marriage to you.

You know that you have been a good friend to me and you are the reminisce of my long forgotten youth, you always reminds me of the good old days…

Together with you and N, I got through one of my hardest fall from love. We even promise each other that we’ll keep each other company when we grow old if we got no family of our own.

But last night… ah… D, I feel so selfish to keep you for myself. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to be with the one you love. Even though I never like V that much and I always feel that you deserve someone better, but who am I to tell you who you can love and who you can’t?

If one should know better of not answering a proposal of the man one really loves, then I am the person. I know very well the regret and the disappointment of never gives a yes.

D, if your heart only calls for his name and when it hurts missing him so much, then you are in love. And I, I want to be a good friend to you… I shan’t stand in your way of happiness. I shall be the person who celebrates your love and support you all the way.

D, whatever you decide, I will be with you all the way, but… don’t make me the person who stands on your way. Think of me no more, if one deserves to be happy, then you are that person. You are one of my most precious people on earth, I let go our beautiful Bali girl to be with the love of her life. And it still feels like a dream… it still feels like she only going for a day or two… but it’ll be awhile until we see her again. Oh… I never good with goodbyes… But it brings me to reality, that you one day may leaves me. Oh, D… I’m scared as hell… I am terrified that I’d be alone, without both of you in my life. Yet, I know that I’d be a bad friend if I keep you away from your happiness. D, please don’t do anything you will regret your entire life, be happy, be in love, and I promise you that I will be here for you, like always.

 

Love,

H

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