Regretting and acceptance
Maybe I am not as bitter as I used to be… but I am still stupid.
I often let my fears rule me, dictate what I should feel and lead me to paths I should not go.
You know the time when you make decisions that you know will ruin a part of you and your life? Yeah, I keep making that decisions!
I know I found someone perfect for me, but my fear encourage me to push that person go… and eventually, my fear won.
I think in psychology theory is called ‘self fulfilling prophecy’…
But that urge to do it is so strong, especially when people around you were against it.
…maybe I should stop blaming others for my decisions… after all, it was me who made them.
I know I am afraid of commitments… but I don’t know the reason! Unfortunately, by the time I know the source of my fear, it will all be too late.
Hey, at least this time it’s different… at least I don’t use 3 person as an excuse 
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I am once called by a friend, “beautifully complex” person… I have no idea what it means!
I am just an ordinary girl with some out of this world ideas, just like everyone else in this globe..
At this moment, I can still call myself a researcher. Nothing as fancy as a scientist… I’m a marketing researcher. we dont know in 5, 10 years time what would I be… so until then, I am a marketing researcher 
Now as you read through the passages of my Blog, you might have figure that I am a (not so) young female living in Jakarta, single and got lots to complaint about… but hey, don’t take me wrong as one of a friend ask me when he read this… “you really hate Indonesia, don’t you?”
hm… that is a strong statement! No, I don’t hate Indonesia… I kinda have a love affair with it actually, and as in every love affairs, of course there are low & high points. The thing is… I can’t stand some of its’ people…
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yes Tan… you are stupid! in psychological meanings
… Isn’t it ironic? 
No, you’re being sarcastic…
finally…..,
I’m sure this is the most valuable achievement to a real happiness…..
congrats and goodluck!
Waahhh malah diamini…
Decisions decisions… stupid still…
Pointnya adalah…. Jeng discovers bahwa ….“I often let my fears rule me, dictate what I should feel and lead me to paths I should not go”…… to me, this is what I consider most valuable achievement. Kita akan mudah dan tergerak memperbaiki hal yg keliru apabila kita tahu bhw hal tsb keliru dan kita mengaui hal tsb keliru…..
Salam
achievement.. if we managed to overcome our weaknesses… I am still learning