A chat log

The name and place in this chat has been changed – any similarities… sorry, it was an honest mistake!

This chat happened in real life sometimes ago… a bit long… but quite funny… and sad

11:04:41: cheekygurl:  at least he’s a blonde
11:06:44: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:06:49: hotheaded bitch:  he’s burnet
11:10:25: cheekygurl:  oh
11:10:30: cheekygurl:  i didnt remember
11:10:31: cheekygurl:  
11:10:42: cheekygurl:  they all look the same to me
11:10:43: hotheaded bitch:  hahahaha
11:10:52: hotheaded bitch:  yeah yeah
11:11:05: cheekygurl:  i miss him too
11:11:09: cheekygurl:  i hate this
11:11:15: cheekygurl:  not david, fyi
11:11:41: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:11:50: hotheaded bitch:  i thought we’re talking about david
11:12:27: cheekygurl:  no…men in general
11:12:38: cheekygurl:  i miss him like crazy
11:12:42: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:12:44: hotheaded bitch:  men?
11:12:46: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:12:50: cheekygurl:  i feel like jumping on the next flight
11:13:00: hotheaded bitch:  what do u mean?
11:13:01: cheekygurl:  that lizard wont let me
11:13:07: hotheaded bitch:  i c
11:13:12: hotheaded bitch:  you want to move on
11:13:16: hotheaded bitch:  but cant
11:13:18: cheekygurl:  i just want to jump the next flight to smarang
11:13:24: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:13:25: cheekygurl:  cant
11:13:34: hotheaded bitch:  he’s in semarang?
11:13:39: cheekygurl:  he said it’s inappropriate for a ‘lady’
11:13:49: cheekygurl:  he’s married
11:13:56: hotheaded bitch:  WHO????????????
11:13:59: cheekygurl:  he’s married to a local. i know it
11:14:04: hotheaded bitch:  WHAT THE FUCK??
11:14:11: cheekygurl:  lol
11:14:31: hotheaded bitch:  STOP BEING PARANOID GIRL!!!
11:14:37: cheekygurl:  i think he’s married to a local, that’s why he wont let me come to smarang
11:14:48: cheekygurl:  they have 2 kids now
11:14:53: hotheaded bitch:  because u r such a troublesome girl
11:15:09: hotheaded bitch:  if only you’re not this needy
11:15:14: hotheaded bitch:  he might ask u to
11:15:15: cheekygurl:  that’s the price of being with me yaaaa
11:15:30: hotheaded bitch:  that’s why he cant stand to be near u
11:15:40: cheekygurl:  can i use your name
11:15:43: cheekygurl:  ?
11:15:52: hotheaded bitch:  for what?
11:15:57: cheekygurl:  say that i’m with you, but i’m with him instead
11:15:58: cheekygurl:  ?
11:16:09: cheekygurl:  dini says no…some friend
11:16:10: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:16:28: hotheaded bitch:  never come to them unless they ask you to
11:16:34: hotheaded bitch:  it’s annoying
11:16:59: cheekygurl:  yeah
11:17:08: cheekygurl:  i cant stand this!!!
11:17:17: hotheaded bitch:  dont be such a hag
11:17:24: cheekygurl:  he’ll never ask me
11:17:27: hotheaded bitch:  nagging like baby
11:17:32: cheekygurl:  he’s too old school
11:17:38: hotheaded bitch:  then stop paying attention to him
11:17:45: hotheaded bitch:  he will beg for it later
11:17:46: cheekygurl:  im not
11:17:55: hotheaded bitch:  YES U DO
11:17:58: cheekygurl:  i havent call him in 2 days
11:19:52: hotheaded bitch:  SOOOOOOOOOOOO?????????
11:20:03: hotheaded bitch:  i havent buzz david for 2 weeks
11:20:07: hotheaded bitch:  or 3
11:20:15: hotheaded bitch:  oh who’s counting
11:20:47: cheekygurl:  yeah
11:20:53: hotheaded bitch:  i’m waiting and hoping that my feeling will soon fade away
11:21:18: cheekygurl:  it will, if you stop any kind of communication with him
11:21:24: cheekygurl:  be nice to yourself
11:21:47: cheekygurl:  but you dont want to loose contact with him….so…. it’s an oxymoron
11:22:09: hotheaded bitch:  nope
11:22:16: hotheaded bitch:  a total moron to be exact
11:22:45: hotheaded bitch:  he’s in tokyo now
11:23:15: hotheaded bitch:  i dont know why I cant let go
11:23:23: hotheaded bitch:  i want it so much
11:23:50: hotheaded bitch:  but it seems that whenever he needs me, i hv got this feelings
11:23:56: cheekygurl:  coz, you feel like it is impossible for you to feel this kind of feeling with another guy
11:24:08: cheekygurl:  or small chance
11:24:37: cheekygurl:  so, you keep holding on to whatever you have right now
11:25:08: hotheaded bitch:  i know
11:25:10: cheekygurl:  the truth is…it is veerryyy possible for both of us to feel this way again with some other guys
11:25:29: cheekygurl:   ?
11:25:34: hotheaded bitch:  i dont think we will
11:25:41: cheekygurl:  nah
11:25:55: hotheaded bitch:  this is what i call mature love
11:26:01: cheekygurl:  as a freethinker…. i must not close that door of possibility
11:26:19: cheekygurl:  the possibility is there….but less likely to happen again
11:26:32: hotheaded bitch:  when you have feel many kinds of love
11:26:43: hotheaded bitch:  you know which is for real
11:26:52: hotheaded bitch:  and which is not
11:27:12: hotheaded bitch:  and i know that mature love, is not something that’s easy to get over
11:28:00: cheekygurl:  that’s not mature love
11:28:31: cheekygurl:  you found the kind of person you’re looking for
11:28:45: cheekygurl:  and you know, there arent many of them out there
11:29:31: cheekygurl:  there’s just gotta be more to life than this
11:30:04: hotheaded bitch:  mature love is when you dont have that annoying running through your head all day
11:31:21: hotheaded bitch:  it’s just love
11:31:38: hotheaded bitch:  without any terms and condition
11:31:40: cheekygurl:  nooo
11:31:53: cheekygurl:  that running thing is just my libido
11:31:58: cheekygurl:  you told me so
11:32:05: hotheaded bitch:  I didnt talk about u
11:32:19: hotheaded bitch:  i was talking about love
11:32:20: cheekygurl:  yeah…
11:32:27: cheekygurl:  you have your libido under control
11:32:44: cheekygurl:  but the rest of it… i dont think it’s love
11:32:53: cheekygurl:  i think it’s your own fear
11:33:01: hotheaded bitch:  to be honest, I dont have that strong urge to jump him
11:33:08: cheekygurl:  see?
11:33:16: hotheaded bitch:  i just want to see the smile on his face
11:33:26: hotheaded bitch:  to see that he is well taken care of
11:33:30: cheekygurl:  it’s your fear of never finding any guy like david anymore
11:33:52: hotheaded bitch:  there will be no one like him
11:34:10: cheekygurl:  mine is still circling around my libido and my urge to have a baby
11:34:12: hotheaded bitch:  but i might found someone else that i grew fond of later
11:34:25: hotheaded bitch:  you dont want babies
11:34:30: cheekygurl:  of course no one is like david
11:34:34: hotheaded bitch:  you just need a reason to live
11:34:49: cheekygurl:  i just want to experience motherhood
11:34:58: cheekygurl:  i feel like i’ve done everything
11:35:04: hotheaded bitch:  yes, you need a reason to be here on earth
11:35:08: cheekygurl:  except going to europe
11:35:12: hotheaded bitch:  lol
11:35:13: cheekygurl:  i dont need
11:35:23: cheekygurl:  i’m already here
11:35:24: hotheaded bitch:  then why dont u just die
11:35:35: cheekygurl:  coz im still breathing
11:35:41: hotheaded bitch:  u need to experience death also
11:35:48: cheekygurl:  and i’ve never tried motherhood
11:35:49: hotheaded bitch:  it might be fun
11:35:54: hotheaded bitch:  naahh
11:36:01: cheekygurl:  i’ve never tried being a wife
11:36:03: hotheaded bitch:  motherhood is not that good
11:36:12: cheekygurl:  like you know
11:36:18: cheekygurl:  you hate children
11:36:26: hotheaded bitch:  being a spouse is not something you r good at
11:36:37: cheekygurl:  being pregnant, i want to feel what it’s like
11:36:47: hotheaded bitch:  buy a pregnancy kit
11:36:50: hotheaded bitch:  and buy a kid
11:37:04: cheekygurl:  maybe i will
11:37:09: hotheaded bitch:  if u want to feel giving birth like
11:37:11: cheekygurl:  buy a kid
11:37:20: hotheaded bitch:  just plant a cist
11:37:27: cheekygurl:  i’m thinking about buying a kid
11:37:32: hotheaded bitch:  yeah yeah
11:37:34: hotheaded bitch:  buy one
11:37:41: cheekygurl:  it’s just soooo expensive
11:37:45: hotheaded bitch:  but remember to find back up parents
11:37:50: hotheaded bitch:  no it’s not
11:38:10: cheekygurl:  yes, it cost my friend almost 20 millions
11:38:11: hotheaded bitch:  go to some village with 5 mills
11:38:18: hotheaded bitch:  and buy someone’s kid
11:38:25: cheekygurl:  i want to do it legally
11:38:27: cheekygurl:  come on
11:38:31: hotheaded bitch:  hey
11:38:44: hotheaded bitch:  you want it just for the kick of it
11:38:51: cheekygurl:  there are rules in this world
11:39:07: hotheaded bitch:  as an atheist, you pay attention to rules???
11:39:09: hotheaded bitch:  =))
11:39:15: cheekygurl:  hell yeah
11:39:22: hotheaded bitch:  now that’s what i called ironic
11:39:30: cheekygurl:  geez
11:39:41: cheekygurl:  you are more ignorant than i thought
11:39:45: cheekygurl:  i’m sorry
11:39:52: cheekygurl:  :-s
11:39:54: hotheaded bitch:  hey
11:40:07: hotheaded bitch:  i am pissed at your intention to buy a fucking kid
11:40:17: cheekygurl:  so??
11:40:25: hotheaded bitch:  you think like you’re planning to buy a goddam puppy
11:40:32: cheekygurl:  he’ll be well taken care of
11:40:38: cheekygurl:  he’ll be loved
11:40:38: hotheaded bitch:  says who?
11:40:48: hotheaded bitch:  you cant even take care of yourself
11:40:49: cheekygurl:  i just did
11:41:04: hotheaded bitch:  you need lots of people to hold your emotion
11:41:10: cheekygurl:  better than a lot of ppl i know
11:41:18: cheekygurl:  at least
11:41:24: hotheaded bitch:  and how can you hold this kid’s emotion?
11:41:58: cheekygurl:  this is only a kid
11:42:06: cheekygurl:  i can manage until his teens
11:42:24: cheekygurl:  a kid is happy with a bag of oreo
11:42:30: hotheaded bitch:  yeah of course, when he/she reaches teens, we can just easily discard IT
11:42:30: cheekygurl:  and a story before bed
11:42:46: cheekygurl:  that’s when i can see my result
11:42:52: hotheaded bitch:  you are ignorant
11:43:05: cheekygurl:  im being realistic
11:43:07: hotheaded bitch:  read all those parenting articles
11:43:14: hotheaded bitch:  read them
11:43:18: cheekygurl:  i’m never gonna be a perfect parent
11:43:20: hotheaded bitch:  I’m realistic
11:43:26: cheekygurl:  at least i will try
11:43:31: hotheaded bitch:  you are deluded
11:43:46: hotheaded bitch:  you need more than money and fucking oreo
11:43:52: cheekygurl:  and there will be 1 less hungry kid in this world
11:44:03: hotheaded bitch:  you need to be an adult first
11:44:14: hotheaded bitch:  feed those kids if u like
11:44:20: hotheaded bitch:  but dont take them as urs
11:44:27: cheekygurl:  we are all a kid inside
11:44:57: hotheaded bitch:  yes, the mature human will have good decision of when to be one
11:45:12: hotheaded bitch:  damn girl
11:45:26: cheekygurl:  sure
11:45:32: hotheaded bitch:  i am so angry at u rite now
11:45:40: cheekygurl:  im going through it at this moment
11:45:56: cheekygurl:  when im done
11:46:05: cheekygurl:  im gonna get that kid
11:46:15: hotheaded bitch:  you cant BUY A FUCKING KID JUST BECAUSE U WANT TO EXPERIENCE
11:46:28: cheekygurl:  so?
11:46:34: cheekygurl:  this is life
11:46:34: hotheaded bitch:  that kid is A FUCKING HUMAN BEING
11:46:41: cheekygurl:  might just get everything you can
11:46:54: cheekygurl:  it’s not like im gonna torture him
11:46:55: hotheaded bitch:  i thought you ppl are more humanistic
11:46:59: hotheaded bitch:  yes u will
11:47:00: cheekygurl:  im just gonna feed him
11:47:06: cheekygurl:  and bathe him
11:47:12: hotheaded bitch:  HE NEED MORE THAN THAT
11:47:20: hotheaded bitch:  he’s not a fucking PUPPY
11:47:27: cheekygurl:  take him to see the doctor when he get sick
11:47:38: cheekygurl:  read story before bed
11:47:44: cheekygurl:  make it feel safe
11:47:48: cheekygurl:  so??
11:47:53: hotheaded bitch:  you r describing a puppy do u know that?
11:47:56: cheekygurl:  dont worry, im not a paedophile
11:48:12: hotheaded bitch:  but you are a sick woman
11:48:23: cheekygurl:  hey, i love my puppies
11:48:36: hotheaded bitch:  then get urself a goddam puppy
11:48:37: cheekygurl:  what makes my puppy less lovable?
11:48:50: cheekygurl:  no lah
11:48:53: hotheaded bitch:  human are the weakest animal
11:49:03: cheekygurl:  so?
11:49:03: hotheaded bitch:  they cant live on their own
11:49:11: hotheaded bitch:  dogs can
11:49:17: cheekygurl:  that’s why im helping it to grow
11:49:34: hotheaded bitch:  i thought you hv got an excellent brain
11:49:41: hotheaded bitch:  read more
11:49:54: hotheaded bitch:  read human development psychology
11:50:01: cheekygurl:  sure
11:50:06: hotheaded bitch:  you will know that HUMAN ARE NOT PUPPIES
11:50:26: hotheaded bitch:  you disappointed me
11:50:45: cheekygurl:  hey
11:50:56: cheekygurl:  they are both living creatures
11:51:10: cheekygurl:  trying to survive
11:51:18: hotheaded bitch:  yes, but one can be eaten while others shouldnt
11:51:18: cheekygurl:  i want to help one to survive
11:51:37: cheekygurl:  i dont see the connection
11:51:52: hotheaded bitch:  …I miss talking to an adult
11:52:43: hotheaded bitch:  you need to see a shrink
11:52:50: hotheaded bitch:  just go pls
11:53:12: hotheaded bitch:  and get some idea of your life purpose
11:53:13: cheekygurl:  lol
11:53:33: cheekygurl:  my life purpose is to survive
11:53:45: cheekygurl:  and help other to survive as much as i can
11:53:56: hotheaded bitch:  and not to ruin others life, i presume?
11:54:07: cheekygurl:  sorry, i dont have any heaven to go to after this
11:54:17: hotheaded bitch:  read of how a fucked up parents can messed up a kid’s life
11:54:26: cheekygurl:  and i ruin others? thank you
11:54:34: hotheaded bitch:  i dont even want to talk about heaven
11:54:35: cheekygurl:  thank you for your trust
11:55:02: hotheaded bitch:  you need to evaluate yourself
11:55:09: cheekygurl:  nah
11:55:13: hotheaded bitch:  evaluate your capability
11:55:16: cheekygurl:  i know myself
11:55:30: hotheaded bitch:  and I am ignoring your sarcasm to be a good friend
11:55:31: cheekygurl:  at this moment, at least
11:55:49: cheekygurl:  remind me if i ruin yours, please
11:55:54: hotheaded bitch:  tell me then, why do you need batak’s love that much?
11:55:55: cheekygurl:  never my intention
11:56:07: cheekygurl:  it’s sex
11:56:17: cheekygurl:  you help me see that
11:56:19: cheekygurl:  come ooon
11:56:23: hotheaded bitch:  why do you need sex from batak that much?
11:56:40: hotheaded bitch:  (still ignoring your sarcasm)
11:56:47: cheekygurl:  because i just find out i like it
11:56:58: cheekygurl:  and i cant just do it with any guy
11:57:10: hotheaded bitch:  and you do realized that any guy can do it to?
11:57:11: cheekygurl:  it’s like sharing a spoon
11:57:19: hotheaded bitch:  so why you need only batak guy?
11:57:24: cheekygurl:  i cant just share a spoon with any guy
11:57:35: hotheaded bitch:  you can find any virgin guy
11:57:37: cheekygurl:  coz im comfortable with him
11:57:48: hotheaded bitch:  why do you feel comfortable with him?
11:58:00: cheekygurl:  /.
11:58:02: cheekygurl:  who knows
11:58:04: cheekygurl:  ?
11:58:13: hotheaded bitch:  you need to answer that
11:58:19: cheekygurl:  maybe cos we were friends b4
11:58:30: cheekygurl:  how many guy friend i have?
11:58:40: hotheaded bitch:  why do you think friends can make u comfortable?
11:58:41: cheekygurl:  no more than 4 if you count sonny
11:58:54: cheekygurl:  social creatures?
11:59:09: hotheaded bitch:  i’m asking your reason
11:59:17: hotheaded bitch:  not social theory
11:59:18: cheekygurl:  that’s a 5th grade question
11:59:29: cheekygurl:  you know what my answer would be
11:59:34: hotheaded bitch:  tell me
11:59:40: hotheaded bitch:  i dont assume or guess
11:59:47: cheekygurl:  we’ve been through this 1000 times
11:59:54: cheekygurl:  i dont need a reason to exist
11:59:54: hotheaded bitch:  nope
11:59:59: cheekygurl:  i just exist
12:00:09: cheekygurl:  daaang :-@
12:00:09: hotheaded bitch:  i dont ask for your reason to exist
12:00:24: hotheaded bitch:  i’m asking you why friends making u comfortable
12:00:55: cheekygurl:  you are doubting my capability to love another being
12:00:59: cheekygurl:  im not that selfish
12:01:14: cheekygurl:  you of all ppl, should know better
12:01:21: hotheaded bitch:  did I say that I doubt your capability?
12:01:29: cheekygurl:  yes
12:01:36: hotheaded bitch:  did I say anything about your capability?
12:01:41: cheekygurl:  that’s an insult in my dictionary
12:02:07: hotheaded bitch:  it wasnt me who say anything about capabilities
12:02:16: cheekygurl:  yes you just did
12:02:20: cheekygurl:  press f3
12:02:43: cheekygurl:  you think i can never love something more complicated than a puppy
12:02:44: hotheaded bitch:  I said :”capability to hold other’s emotion”
12:02:50: cheekygurl:  not batak guy
12:02:59: cheekygurl:  not a child
12:03:52: hotheaded bitch:  honey, you know I cant do this with you
12:04:18: hotheaded bitch:  you do know that it is perfectly okay to go to a psychologist?
12:04:29: cheekygurl:  no lah
12:04:40: cheekygurl:  it’s enough what you said
12:04:49: cheekygurl:  maybe it’s true
12:04:54: hotheaded bitch:  see… you’re angry to me now
12:05:10: hotheaded bitch:  this is why it is unethical
12:05:16: cheekygurl:  maybe i am not capable of loving something other than myself
12:05:22: cheekygurl:  no im not angry
12:05:33: cheekygurl:  it’s a criticism
12:05:38: hotheaded bitch:  it is not
12:05:49: hotheaded bitch:  I’m trying to shake u up
12:06:08: hotheaded bitch:  i’m trying to evoke your subconscious
12:06:12: cheekygurl:  someone with such high intellectual capability should be able to bear criticism
12:06:23: hotheaded bitch:  lol
12:06:33: hotheaded bitch:  if you say so
12:06:40: cheekygurl:  hey…it’s easier to see from a distance sometimes
12:07:14: hotheaded bitch:  but for me, a normal human being are allowed to be angry
12:07:20: cheekygurl:  you must have a strong reason to think that way
12:07:30: cheekygurl:  im not angry kok
12:07:39: hotheaded bitch:  i do have a reason
12:07:47: cheekygurl:  it’s not like you stab me in the back
12:07:47: hotheaded bitch:  but i cant say it
12:07:52: hotheaded bitch:  :)
12:08:18: hotheaded bitch:  like i said sometimes back
12:08:29: hotheaded bitch:  it is a reason that you need to find yourself
12:08:56: hotheaded bitch:  it might gives a huge disappointment to yourself
12:08:59: cheekygurl:  my self this moment is different than my self 2 second ago
12:09:13: hotheaded bitch:  or you might get angry
12:09:17: cheekygurl:  just make sure i have my feet on the ground
12:09:28: cheekygurl:  why should i?
12:09:30: hotheaded bitch:  you are the same person, with more knowledge
12:09:39: cheekygurl:  just a waste of energy
12:09:48: hotheaded bitch:  because you are an intellectual being
12:10:07: hotheaded bitch:  that need to find more inside before to find more outside
12:10:14: cheekygurl:  yeah…
12:10:23: cheekygurl:  i know i can love another being tho’
12:10:33: cheekygurl:  if i want it bad enough
12:10:38: hotheaded bitch:  an understanding of oneself will lead to wisdom
12:11:17: hotheaded bitch:  wisdom will open a path to vast knowledge
12:11:28: cheekygurl:  and i still want to adopt a kid :-p
12:12:05: hotheaded bitch:  I suggest, understand yourself and then buy a fucking kid if u want
12:12:25: cheekygurl:  i see my self
12:12:27: cheekygurl:  sure sure
12:12:49: hotheaded bitch:  seeing is not the same as understanding
12:13:18: cheekygurl:  i just never thought i’m a selfish biatch who doesnt have the capability of sacrifice
12:13:38: hotheaded bitch:  to love is to let go
12:13:47: cheekygurl:  i sacrifice a lot of things….
12:13:51: hotheaded bitch:  to let go is to sacrifice
12:13:52: cheekygurl:  i just never talk about it
12:14:00: cheekygurl:  well some…
12:14:06: cheekygurl:  some i like to hold on to
12:14:22: hotheaded bitch:  when you feel what you do as sacrifices, then I think it’s not love
12:14:31: cheekygurl:  sure
12:15:08: cheekygurl:  i put people before me, that kind of sacrifice
12:15:43: cheekygurl:  and try my best so noone will have to know about it
12:15:49: cheekygurl:  including the person
12:15:57: cheekygurl:  that kind of sacrifice
12:16:15: hotheaded bitch:  act of love is not sacrifices
12:16:54: hotheaded bitch:  when i went to mexico, i didnt see it as sacrifice
12:17:16: cheekygurl:  of course is not
12:17:17: hotheaded bitch:  i want to prove to myself whether my feelings are true or not
12:17:28: hotheaded bitch:  but if i think like u
12:17:37: hotheaded bitch:  i would say that david is being unfair
12:17:51: cheekygurl:  he’s just being him self
12:17:59: hotheaded bitch:  i put up with all the trouble to see him
12:18:07: hotheaded bitch:  but he didnt even pick me
12:18:15: cheekygurl:  did he know that?
12:18:26: hotheaded bitch:  that wasnt a sacrifice
12:18:30: cheekygurl:  all the trouble you went through?
12:18:39: hotheaded bitch:  i dont need him to know
12:18:53: hotheaded bitch:  it was for me and him to realize
12:18:59: cheekygurl:  to him, it was just a vacation with your girl friend
12:19:08: cheekygurl:  he happen to tag along
12:19:08: hotheaded bitch:  whether the feeling is true or not
12:19:15: hotheaded bitch:  nope
12:19:27: hotheaded bitch:  he know that i come to mexico to see him
12:19:43: cheekygurl:  im sorry
12:19:48: hotheaded bitch:  since it’s actually i dont need to go to mexico
12:19:52: cheekygurl:  if that’s true
12:19:58: hotheaded bitch:  no matter
12:20:07: hotheaded bitch:  it was necessary for me
12:20:10: cheekygurl:  i officially think he’s a dickhead
12:20:42: cheekygurl:  he should’ve consider how he would make you feel
12:20:51: hotheaded bitch:  he just realize that he dont feel the same way as i do
12:21:01: hotheaded bitch:  and its perfectly fine
12:21:04: cheekygurl:  all the consequences on him and on you
12:21:06: hotheaded bitch:  i want him to be happy
12:21:08: cheekygurl:  for you
12:21:11: cheekygurl:  not for me
12:21:15: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
12:21:25: cheekygurl:  i dont like him treating you that way
12:21:31: cheekygurl:  so not acceptable
12:21:32: hotheaded bitch:  as long as he’s happy…
12:21:42: hotheaded bitch:  this is what i called let go
12:21:55: hotheaded bitch:  i will still have that feelings
12:21:58: cheekygurl:  but you’re not letting go baby
12:22:04: cheekygurl:  it’s dragging you
12:22:07: hotheaded bitch:  but i wont chase him
12:22:10: hotheaded bitch:  yes
12:22:20: hotheaded bitch:  i didnt let go FOR ME
12:22:26: hotheaded bitch:  but i let him go
12:22:36: cheekygurl:  that’s what im talking about
12:22:43: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
12:22:49: hotheaded bitch:  i dont chase him
12:23:01: cheekygurl:  hey
12:23:09: cheekygurl:  i know one thing
12:23:12: hotheaded bitch:  i dont want to make him uncomfortable
12:23:21: cheekygurl:  everybody has the right to be happy
12:23:24: hotheaded bitch:  yes
12:23:35: hotheaded bitch:  and for me, mind u, for me
12:23:45: cheekygurl:  need to find your happiness
12:23:47: hotheaded bitch:  i’m happy if he found his reason to be happy
12:23:51: cheekygurl:  YOUR happiness
12:24:06: cheekygurl:  yeah, and you call his girlfriend DUMMY
12:24:21: hotheaded bitch:  my happiness should not give unhappiness to others
12:24:30: cheekygurl:  /:)
12:24:37: hotheaded bitch:  hey i was jealous
12:24:52: hotheaded bitch:  but i didnt lay my hand on her
12:24:59: hotheaded bitch:  i respect her
12:25:13: hotheaded bitch:  and i respect david’s choice
12:25:17: cheekygurl:  it doesnt have to be physical puhleeze
12:25:32: cheekygurl:  you just dont approve of it
12:33:11: hotheaded bitch:  like i said
12:33:22: hotheaded bitch:  for me that’s why i called love
12:33:36: hotheaded bitch:  for each person, it can be different
12:34:09: hotheaded bitch:  i just want to person i love to be happy even it means not with me
12:34:28: cheekygurl:  that’s self torture to me
12:34:40: hotheaded bitch:  that’s unconditional love
12:34:46: hotheaded bitch:  :D
12:34:53: hotheaded bitch:  cinta tak berujung
12:34:55: cheekygurl:  you can feel better with some other guy
12:35:01: hotheaded bitch:  yes i can
12:35:09: hotheaded bitch:  but can i love more?
12:35:10: cheekygurl:  but you choose feel pain of not having this one
12:35:15: hotheaded bitch:  maybe
12:35:27: cheekygurl:  life’s too short baby
12:35:34: hotheaded bitch:  maybe I’m just a fucked up masochist
12:35:36: hotheaded bitch:  :D
12:35:54: cheekygurl:  and you only got the good look for another 10 years
12:36:07: hotheaded bitch:  maybe
12:36:12: hotheaded bitch:  so what?
12:36:23: cheekygurl:  this ‘unconditional love’ thingy will take 5 years of that
12:36:31: cheekygurl:  
12:36:38: hotheaded bitch:  the person i love and who loves me back should not see me on skin layer
12:36:43: hotheaded bitch:  perhaps
12:36:54: cheekygurl:  im not talking about other
12:37:04: cheekygurl:  i thought you love your looks
12:38:01: cheekygurl:  dont you want to hold on to it as long as you can?
12:39:16: hotheaded bitch:  =))
12:39:21: hotheaded bitch:  yes i want
12:39:34: cheekygurl:  see?
12:39:44: hotheaded bitch:  not that i’m wasting it
12:39:55: cheekygurl:  that’s a good reason to let yourself go
12:40:02: hotheaded bitch:  i dont want him to see me by my face value
12:40:07: hotheaded bitch:  i’m letting go
12:40:13: hotheaded bitch:  i dont chase him
12:40:21: cheekygurl:  iiiih
12:40:24: cheekygurl:  not that
12:40:37: hotheaded bitch:  i’m not closing myself too
12:40:45: cheekygurl:  that emotional fence you build around yourself
12:40:54: hotheaded bitch:  no fence
12:41:04: hotheaded bitch:  just standards
12:41:07: hotheaded bitch:  :D
12:41:14: hotheaded bitch:  like any of us have
12:41:23: cheekygurl:  oooohh i willlll nevvvvvverrrrr findddddddd anyyyooneeee likeeee daaaavvvvviiiiddddd
12:41:29: cheekygurl:  *playing air violin*
12:41:37: hotheaded bitch:  i did fell for Harry, remember?
12:41:43: hotheaded bitch:  too bad that his married
12:41:48: cheekygurl:  it was not
12:41:52: hotheaded bitch:  yes it was
12:41:56: cheekygurl:  it was just a crush
12:41:59: hotheaded bitch:  lol
12:42:05: hotheaded bitch:  i fell for him
12:42:15: cheekygurl:  crush
12:42:21: cheekygurl:  an infatuation
12:42:22: hotheaded bitch:  he was even better than david
12:42:31: cheekygurl:  like i have for Fabio
12:42:42: hotheaded bitch:  yes infatuation that might lead to love if i let it
12:42:52: hotheaded bitch:  but the minute i know that he’s married
12:43:01: hotheaded bitch:  it’s gone into thin air
12:43:06: cheekygurl:  love needs something more than that
12:43:11: cheekygurl:  just emails…dunno
12:43:14: cheekygurl:  IMHO sih
12:43:18: hotheaded bitch:  ihihihi
12:43:26: cheekygurl:  you fell for his virtual image
12:43:32: hotheaded bitch:  i dont need physical for love eight?
12:43:35: hotheaded bitch:  maybe
12:43:40: hotheaded bitch:  virtual love
12:43:53: cheekygurl:  not physical either…i dunno
12:43:57: hotheaded bitch:  which many ppl these days happen to make it
12:44:06: hotheaded bitch:  and it’s okay
12:44:07: cheekygurl:  just that it’s soo easy to lie virtually
12:44:14: cheekygurl:  ya sih
12:44:18: cheekygurl:  is it?
12:44:18: hotheaded bitch:  i dont have that attachments to him just yet
12:44:29: hotheaded bitch:  that’s why it’s easier to let go
12:44:38: hotheaded bitch:  as for david
12:44:50: cheekygurl:  i think you just need to think that you could be happy again w someone else
12:44:55: hotheaded bitch:  i have a strange attachment
12:45:05: hotheaded bitch:  i will
12:45:13: hotheaded bitch:  i just need to find the guy first
12:45:18: cheekygurl:  so that you dont get all weepy and teary with just a single tweet from that guy
12:45:31: hotheaded bitch:  i’m not just hanging around waiting for david
12:45:46: cheekygurl:  no you’re not
12:45:50: hotheaded bitch:  :))
12:45:54: hotheaded bitch:  i’m not
12:46:02: cheekygurl:  but a tweet from him is enough to make you emotional
12:46:16: hotheaded bitch:  it’s just happen that i havent found other love
12:46:38: hotheaded bitch:  that tweet, as you say it, found a way to my heart
12:46:57: hotheaded bitch:  of course i got emotional
12:47:13: hotheaded bitch:  you cant choose the ppl you love
12:47:19: hotheaded bitch:  but you can choose your life
12:47:36: hotheaded bitch:  i choose to be an observer
12:47:52: hotheaded bitch:  who fell in love with her subject
12:48:14: cheekygurl:  lol
12:48:47: cheekygurl:  im gonna ask batak guy
12:48:53: hotheaded bitch:  what?
12:48:59: cheekygurl:  does he think like you do
12:49:04: hotheaded bitch:  sure
12:49:17: hotheaded bitch:  i’m sure he thinks differently
12:49:30: cheekygurl:  i know you’re right on one thing
12:49:34: hotheaded bitch:  he is after all a primitive being, man
12:49:37: hotheaded bitch:  what?
12:49:48: cheekygurl:  if i dont think about sex so much, i dont miss him that much
12:50:03: cheekygurl:  yeah, of course i want to see his face
12:50:22: cheekygurl:  but i dont feel like yapping and jumping on to the next flight to semarang
12:57:42: hotheaded bitch:  hm..
12:57:54: hotheaded bitch:  he’s only symbol for sex
12:58:12: cheekygurl:  probably
12:58:27: cheekygurl:  my sexual object
12:58:36: cheekygurl:  shesh im so shallow
12:59:15: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
12:59:17: cheekygurl:  hey, i pamper my man
12:59:25: hotheaded bitch:  you dont
12:59:29: hotheaded bitch:  u use him
12:59:33: cheekygurl:  i take care of him like he’s 5 sometimes
12:59:47: cheekygurl:  in exchange for sex
12:59:56: cheekygurl:  :p
13:00:03: cheekygurl:  ask him
13:00:23: cheekygurl:  i do kok
13:00:33: cheekygurl:  it’s just i want something in return
13:00:51: cheekygurl:  berujung
13:01:24: hotheaded bitch:  5 what?
13:01:48: cheekygurl:  like he’s 5 years old
13:01:55: hotheaded bitch:  =))
13:02:34: hotheaded bitch:  you need more to make him attached to u
13:04:50: hotheaded bitch:  you need adult treatment
13:05:11: hotheaded bitch:  you need to make him feel that he got u in every aspect of his life
13:06:02: cheekygurl:  of course
13:06:19: cheekygurl:  the only problem is that i dont believe in jesus
13:06:26: hotheaded bitch:  i c
13:06:33: cheekygurl:  like his family wants
13:06:35: hotheaded bitch:  that’s all
13:06:49: cheekygurl:  at least that what he said
13:06:54: hotheaded bitch:  do what others do
13:06:58: hotheaded bitch:  pretend
13:07:04: hotheaded bitch:  sacrifice
13:07:10: cheekygurl:  then he also promised me that he will fight for me
13:07:16: cheekygurl:  oh suree
13:07:22: cheekygurl:  i have no problem with that
13:07:34: hotheaded bitch:  so say that
13:07:41: cheekygurl:  splash me, i’ll recite the our fathers
13:08:00: hotheaded bitch:  tell him that you’re willing to put it in ur KTP
13:08:07: hotheaded bitch:  and even marry in a church
13:08:17: cheekygurl:  yeah… maybe
13:08:30: cheekygurl:  im a bit afraid he might chase me about it
13:08:49: hotheaded bitch:  so?
13:09:00: hotheaded bitch:  u chase him like crazy
13:09:06: hotheaded bitch:  you know
13:09:13: cheekygurl:  not to be married toooo
13:09:16: hotheaded bitch:  you will hate him if he chases u
13:09:36: cheekygurl:  how did i get so complicated?
13:10:11: cheekygurl:   ?
13:10:19: hotheaded bitch:  when u decide to be different
13:10:35: hotheaded bitch:  you will get complication
13:10:57: cheekygurl:  i dont think im ready for the commotion
13:10:59: cheekygurl:  i just want him near
13:11:17: hotheaded bitch:  to do whatever u want
13:11:22: hotheaded bitch:  u need a puppy
13:11:24: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
13:11:35: cheekygurl:  i cant fuck a puppy
13:11:38: cheekygurl:  yuck
13:11:55: cheekygurl:  i actually like taking care of batak
13:11:57: hotheaded bitch:  u & ur libido
13:12:06: hotheaded bitch:  this is what sonny talks about
13:12:07: hotheaded bitch:  :D
13:12:13: cheekygurl:  yeah
13:12:15: cheekygurl:  i know
13:12:22: cheekygurl:  it’s true
13:12:30: cheekygurl:  batak guyknows it too
13:12:51: hotheaded bitch:  i will tell batak guy to stop pleasing u
13:13:04: hotheaded bitch:  u will not like him anymore
13:13:10: hotheaded bitch:  =))
13:13:29: cheekygurl:  i’ll be gone in 5 min
13:13:41: cheekygurl:  dont give him any idea
13:13:47: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
13:14:00: hotheaded bitch:  i didnt promise u anything, do i?
13:14:07: cheekygurl:  i’m just so hooked
13:14:11: cheekygurl:  oh shit
13:14:15: cheekygurl:  i’m sick
13:14:24: hotheaded bitch:  =))
13:14:30: hotheaded bitch:  go see a shrink
13:14:31: cheekygurl:  there’s a reason why my libido is this high
13:14:49: cheekygurl:  nah, a psychologist is sufficient
13:14:54: hotheaded bitch:  reason….
13:15:00: cheekygurl:  i’m not hyper or anything like that
13:15:07: hotheaded bitch:  DONT USE ME DAMMIT
13:15:15: cheekygurl:  i’m not
13:15:19: hotheaded bitch:  okay
13:15:21: cheekygurl:  i still got fabio for that
13:15:25: cheekygurl:  
13:15:32: cheekygurl:  he’s a guy
13:15:39: cheekygurl:  he might know a thing or two
13:15:42: hotheaded bitch:  i mean dont use me as your psychologist
13:15:46: hotheaded bitch:  sick bastard
13:15:59: hotheaded bitch:  i can gives you names…
13:16:04: cheekygurl:  you always act like one!!
13:16:10: hotheaded bitch:  :((
13:16:13: hotheaded bitch:  cant help it
13:16:16: hotheaded bitch:  :((
13:16:18: cheekygurl:  you’re a researcher
13:16:21: cheekygurl:  goddamit
13:16:29: hotheaded bitch:  i am
13:16:46: hotheaded bitch:  that’s why i need answer for anything
13:16:50: hotheaded bitch:  :D
13:16:54: hotheaded bitch:  cant help it also
13:16:58: cheekygurl:  and i dont
13:17:05: hotheaded bitch:  you refuse
13:17:06: cheekygurl:  sometimes things just happens
13:17:23: cheekygurl:  and you got nothing to blame, but condition
13:17:24: hotheaded bitch:  for a very scientific person
13:17:39: hotheaded bitch:  but for this, you just refuse to see the reason
13:17:51: hotheaded bitch:  it’s because you know the reason
13:17:55: cheekygurl:  it’s just condition
13:17:58: hotheaded bitch:  but you dont want to talk about it
13:18:08: hotheaded bitch:  you dont want to say it
13:18:08: cheekygurl:  just try to survive out of it
13:18:24: hotheaded bitch:  condition happens due to something
13:18:34: cheekygurl:  yes
13:18:42: cheekygurl:  try to survive and break the chain
13:18:45: cheekygurl:  that’s it
13:18:59: hotheaded bitch:  to survive in one piece, you need to get to know your field
13:19:10: hotheaded bitch:  and the underneath it
13:19:12: cheekygurl:  true
13:19:22: hotheaded bitch:  FIND YOUR FUCKING REASON!
13:19:25: cheekygurl:  that’s why i got you and everyone else in my life
13:19:32: hotheaded bitch:  :((
13:19:38: hotheaded bitch:  you are hopeless baby
13:19:47: cheekygurl:  remind me if i stray from my path
13:20:06: hotheaded bitch:  i dont know ur path
13:20:07: cheekygurl:  no way i can survive alone
13:20:16: hotheaded bitch:  your path is you alone to know
13:20:23: cheekygurl:  it’s similar to yours
13:20:24: hotheaded bitch:  and to walk on
13:20:28: hotheaded bitch:  =))
13:20:31: hotheaded bitch:  no it’s not
13:20:36: hotheaded bitch:  it’s a different path
13:20:40: cheekygurl:  that’s why im still here
13:20:44: hotheaded bitch:  i seek wisdom
13:20:47: hotheaded bitch:  you’re not
13:20:57: hotheaded bitch:  i seek understanding of life
13:21:05: hotheaded bitch:  the meaning of my life
13:21:27: hotheaded bitch:  different path
13:21:34: cheekygurl:  oh yeah?
13:21:37: hotheaded bitch:  but our path sometimes crosses
13:21:45: cheekygurl:  well we have similar vehicle
13:22:01: hotheaded bitch:  really?
13:22:05: hotheaded bitch:  i walk, slowly
13:22:13: cheekygurl:  late 2o’s
13:22:18: cheekygurl:  single
13:22:21: cheekygurl:  educated
13:22:25: hotheaded bitch:  :))
13:22:27: cheekygurl:  woman
13:22:31: hotheaded bitch:  we have similar condition
13:22:33: cheekygurl:  nosy
13:22:36: hotheaded bitch:  not vehicle
13:22:44: cheekygurl:  swears a lot
13:22:48: cheekygurl:  vehicle to me
13:22:58: cheekygurl:  it would be different if you’re married
13:23:01: hotheaded bitch:  vehicle is what we use to reach our destination
13:23:13: cheekygurl:  or born as a guy 5 years older than me
13:23:25: cheekygurl:  you will think differently
13:23:30: hotheaded bitch:  i uses knowledge, science, people, experience and sometimes time
13:23:32: cheekygurl:  progress differently
13:23:50: cheekygurl:  true true
13:23:51: hotheaded bitch:  we have similar mind set
13:23:58: hotheaded bitch:  but again
13:23:59: cheekygurl:  and a dab of gut feeling for me
13:24:09: hotheaded bitch:  ;))
13:24:21: hotheaded bitch:  i choose to take things slowly
13:24:33: hotheaded bitch:  take time to understand things
13:24:41: cheekygurl:  yeah… impulses impulses
13:25:00: cheekygurl:  you are such a girl sometimes
13:25:17: hotheaded bitch:  impulsive?
13:25:20: hotheaded bitch:  reactive
13:35:20: hotheaded bitch:  gtg
13:35:33: hotheaded bitch:  ciao bella
13:35:46: cheekygurl:  bye